OH BABIES!!

So I have made it another week!! However just when I was starting to feel confident that bed rest was going to take me to my goal of at least 36 weeks I got some bad news. Most of the problems associated with babyB aka Tristan during this entire pregnancy are directly related his portion of the placenta. They have pretty much officially decided that they are in fact Identical twins and the placenta which looks like two placentas fused together as one just hasn't worked quite as well for baby B. This has been the main cause for multiple Dr. appts every week and the extensive and large amounts of sonograms I have had. I swear they have a separate filing cabinet just for me at the Dr.s office. Any way they have paid special attention to Tristan to make sure he is continuing to grow and all of that good stuff, although he has been quite a bit smaller the majority of the pregnancy he is a little fighter and faulty placenta aside has managed to make remarkable progress. Unfortunately today at my sonogram his luck had run out. His portion of the placenta just has reached capacity and can no longer sustain him enough to help him grow much further in utero. While baby A Atticus weighs in at about 4.6 pounds Tristan is only measuring at about 2.5... not good news especially when two weeks ago he was only a few ounces smaller. At this point my Dr.s are going to monitor me even more (crazy to think that is even possible at this point) and they have given me another round of steroid shots to help improve the babies lung growth and function. Its kind of a game of chance at this point; do we risk the health of Tristan to give Atticus a few more weeks to pack on some weight and have an easier time.. or do we risk a severely premature birth for both babies to get Tristan out and the nutrients and supplement he needs that he is no longer receiving from me... I have four Dr. appts next week all of which will involve a series of tests, if Tristan passes the tests and does not seem to be in stress they may wait it out another week or so if not during any one of my appts I could get wheeled down to L and D. Its been such a long journey and I really can't say that I am at all disappointed, at any time in the last 15 weeks since Tristan has started to show signs of problems my placenta could have just given out. I've made it clear to 32 weeks and 6 days without that happening, at this point yes it is still scary and yes there are still many risks involved but the odds are so much better now than they were even a week ago. That's pretty much it for now until next time... at which point I may be an official mother of two baby boys.. CRAZY!!!!